Trapped in the waiting list & the 5 Kleshas.

The Pancha Kleshas  all revealed in one morning.

OK there is not such a thing as the suffering of one's being in a waiting list. Have you ever really wonder about the nature of a waiting list?

Normally when we are on a waiting list, is for something that we desire to have or to be , but for various reasons is not available at the time. Next stage comes an acceptance of this fact and right after comes the feeling of suffering. How does this happening ? 

So you need to be patient, but the fact that your minds says to you to be patient it turns the coin from the other side and give rise to your impatient and anxiety..and you suffer because the present moment it disappears.

No Santosha [ Contentment ] as the life comes. 

The last 5 months i'm exactly in that position, as i am waiting for a new chapter in my life to begin, but how ignorant am i that i let myself trapped in this waiting list...

Fortunately,

it comes one morning that the inner light is a little bit stronger and helps you to have a glimpse of what is really taking place. Right here, right now.

And like this i saw clear the 5 causes of my suffering 

Avidya [ ignorance ] 

All these days of waiting i  forget my inner quest " who am i ? " - By applying this quest every moment, reminds me that im trying to investigate the Self, and the Self can only be beyond of  what i'm  identified with.  

Asmita [ egoism ]

Because of my ignorance i pushed away all of my beloved ones, as i though that my kind of suffering is the greatest and no one can understand. And how selfish is that? - To drop the expectations of my ' Uncertain I ' maybe will let me unhooked of my Ego.

Raga [ attachment ]

Because of this selfishness, i attached more to what was making me feel stronger. Meaning my practices, but in that way that i cling too much on them and lost the feeling of spaciousness within the limits, the limits become my barriers and eventually my cause of last weeks injury. - To Let go of my self-center response to reality, right here, right now.

Dvesa [ aversion ]

Because of my attachment, i get disappointed of myself because did not coming to the way i wanted  and  eventually trapped in a meaningless fighting with myself. -  To cultivate new patterns in my mind and body and get rid of the old ones, maybe is a way out there. 

Abhinivesah [ the fear of death ]

Because of all the 4 previous facts, i cannot set me free. I fear more of coming to the state of Yoga. And that is a small death i let happen to me day by day.

-  To embrace the realm of uncertainty and allow myself to be all right of what i don't know how is gonna be..is the freedom (?) 

AVIDYASMITA RAGA DVESABHINIVESAH KLESAH 

[ Ignorance, egoism, attachement, aversion, and fear of death are the five obstacles in life ]

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Patanjali's yoga sutras

    

Dedicate this post to Cibin, from Kerala

   

Practice and all is coming

Since i started practicing the system of Traditional Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga, a quotation start pumping out  like the mushrooms in the lawns between the pages i linked, the articles i red and videos i watched.

A quotation very famous, especially in Ashtanga yoga community is not other than 

" Practice and all is coming "

Back then i couldn't understand the depth of the meaning but slowly slowly i become to understand. Shri. K. Pattabhi Jois was a scholar of Indian philosophy & yoga ancient scriptures as  well of the Sanskrit literature. I believe this background helped him to come with this simple sentence contained by 5 words.

As far as i can understand, " Practice and all is coming " has a non definition of  a time period (is a whole life process) and then (suddenly) the understanding is finally there (maybe never left us at all , it was all there from the very beginning) 

Like if you are digging in a well, is an action and a process that you apply and don't stop until you dig enough where the water is. In this process, the action is the digging ( this is the practice ), as far down you go the well becomes more and more dark (these are the doubt moments and fears that you face ) , you continue to dig even you never know what is really your progress ( that is when you have gain control of the modification of the mind ) 

and suddenly in one hit, the water start to spurt, and you can feel all over you. You are There , and just one hit before you where Nowhere! Oh what a joy...

      

The last nights before i sleep i read one or two of Patanajali's Sutras. 
The Yoga Sutras are divided into 4 chapters of divine spiritual wisdom. 

In the first chapter, that is called Samadhi Pada , there on the 13 and 14 Sutra lies  a link to the famous quotation. So here they are with a small commentary  :

13 

" tatra sthitau yatno'bhyāsaḥ "

There, Abhyasa (practice) is the effort to remain steady and calm in mind (in the state of nirodha)

Shri. K Pattabhi Jois  in his famous sentence is giving the absolute simplicity of a great wisdom...

A continue practice is taking place when we become eternally watchful, mindful and like this we can control our thoughts, our words & actions.

14

 " sa tu dīrghakāla nairantarya satkāra-ādara-āsevito dṛḍhabhūmiḥ "

That (cessation), being served for a long time, without interruption, and with earnestness, becomes firmly grounded. 

Why is so difficult we, the people of modern times to apply it in our daily routine?

If we just think, with what intensity of an effort and without interruptions we apply to catch our "deadlines" at work.
Or how focused and faithful we can be to our goals of ' having a new apartment or a new car '. We can find a tremendous power that lies within. If we can apply this energy to a spiritual practice, just one practice from the thousands that exists, maybe we can enter really to our life.  

  

Sri. K. Pattabhi Jois